nonsense.jibberjabber

Jeez, I tell my parents that I want a bike and my dad tells me “Even if you’re careful, if someone is under the influence of drugs or alcohol, you’re gonna die.”

.. thanks. This is another reason why I can’t tell you things like this. 

Then again, I said “I’m pretty sure I can use my good judgement.” and my mom said “Just go buy it then!” Much better. 

I’d like to say I stood up for myself today. It was a difficult process but when you stand up for what you believe in, no matter how crazy you look/sound, you have to TRUST in yourself that it’s for the best. You have to believe that YOU are worth it and capable of doing it. 

You may not believe that you can do it but once you do it, you’ll start to believe in yourself. 

I think I’m going to quit my retailing job. 

I can see myself from last year freaking out because I had no job. In other words, I had too much time on my hands. Now I want my time back. Of course, times were different then. I wasn’t in the program yet and I was doing fairly good in school I felt the only thing missing is me making some side money. Now, working all these different jobs have made me realize one thing… I really want to be an artist. Retailing is tiring and boring, at least for me. Customers don’t mean to be crabby but their sour attitude can drain the rest of my day. I don’t want to go home and all I feel is how glad I am to get out of that place. I really do not want to feel that way about my future job. 

I need money but time is something I can’t give up, especially if I’m not happy with what I’m giving it up for.. a meager wage. I’m not even doing anything close in my field I’m studying for so I wonder why am I hesitating to pick up and leave? Oh yeah, money. 

It’s not fun to stay up all night

Having the lonely feeling stirring in your heart

Not knowing what can be tomorrow

Is out of sight, with life and death being a thread apart.

Give yourself time and you’ll see.

Life is better when your heart is free

Meaning to life, that’s up to you.

It can be easy as playing a kazoo

Or as trying as kung fu

But always know, you’ll get through

And you’ve been tried and true.

Meaning to life, that’s up to you.

Don’t forget, there will be rough times.

It will be tiring, yet aspiring.

Keep in mind, sometimes

Knowing the goal that you have been conspiring

Will have future generations admiring.

Keep going.

I’ll be here.

It’s people like you that I endear.

Trust me, your meaning of life is showing..

Sometimes, I have to calm myself. I mean, he gets me so nervous. I don’t know what to do. When I see him, I freeze in my tracks. I can’t think of what to do. He keeps running away from me. I don’t know who’s more afraid. Me or him. I find it silly but he’s on my mind ALL DAY. I can’t stop talking about him. People think I should really get him. Problem is that I don’t know how… I’ve done everything. Food. Little treats. Nothing seems to work.

Then out of the blue, he comes out on Valentines day. He stopped, looked around the apartment and then ran straight to my room. I just don’t know what to say about that. 

So now he’s waiting in my bedroom. I’m not quite sure what to do next.

.. just me and the mouse. (or mouse that’s the size of a rat. help! I’m assuming he’s boy. Haha.)

Happy Valentines day y’all! 

It’s location is in Naples. =(

It even opened today too. Why must you be sooooo farrrrrrr!!